ramadhan 22

till you heart starts beating for that somebody new.




semalam masa berbuka romadon ke-22 (mengikut perkiraan jari. kalau salah pun tak sapa sedar), kami bekas pelajar bioinfo ukm (2008-1011) berbuka sama sama kat wong solo bangi. (dah jangan harapkan review dan map. sarahnur pemalas. remember?)


tetiba si lyna menanyakan soalan cepucemas. (sebenarnya takda la cemas mana tapi she caught me off-guard ) dan saya cuma boleh sengih.



apa soalannya hoi budak.




dah jumpa pengganti?





dang.



tak marah. tak konfius. but like i said, she caught me off-guard. time tu tengah sedap mengenakan orang (specifically syasya dan tikah) amik. tuhan bila dia nak bayar, dia bayar tunai. kejap tu gak si lyna balikkan soalan. sampai kelu.



dulu saya marah. ya amat. oh trust me, so many questions i had myself. mostly the whys and hows. but over time. i let the questions go. sebab saya tahu, no one's gonna answer it for me. annnnnnd looking for it myself requires thinking and energy. not gonna waste the ATPs.




membebel je. apa point nye?




so i poured myself into work.





soalan lyna : dah jumpa ke pengganti?



soalan saya : senang ke?



yes and no.





unlike some, walaupun nampak macam propaganda barat ke ape jadah ke, saya rasa, jump into new relationship should be done when u feel like it, and now, i dont.





i told him, i wanted to be single. so i am.





we both knew the affections we had started to wear off, to put it nicely. but i gripped hard. too hard.




so try, convince me, why should i be having these, again, soon?





tahniah kepada sesapa yang nak kawin. semoga Allah memberkati dan dipermudahkan urusan.