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Tuesday 6 August 2013

hooiii

kerja takde lah stressful mana (untuk hari ni), tapi, tetibe saya ter-hoi kan PC secara kuat. dang. malu sendiri.

from sarahnur




why is the need to change people? I mean, if you dont like what you see, change your seat. get a different view, different perspective. why tried changing the world, with your narcissism?




i know i have flaws, i am well aware, but, eventually, i'll change it. i mean,the first step to recovery is admitting the problem. see? I took step 1 already.





why force it on me? on people? does it hurt so much you cannot bear just sitting and watching any longer so you have to spat on people the way you did? i mean, you can hold it, cant you? cause now, after all that, you look like morons. sorry. the truth.




if you ask me, i am happy with where i sit. taking it slow. enjoying the fact that the mistakes i made, teach me something and know i know better.



i have perspectives now. i am clear with things i thought have been bugging me since forever. thanks to all the people that made appearances, and the people that stayed.



sincerely,

sarah n.

ramadan 22 setengah

ada satu lagi pertanyaan dalam ramadan 22 yang buat otak loading.



soalan : sarah ko memang takda fb ke ape ape ke? camne nak kontek ko?


sarahnur : err. whatsapp?


menyedari whatsapp seperti memesej menggunakan line biasa, saya sengih dekat jawapan tu.




dulu saya ada. the so-called social network.



ini aja yang kekal. blog.




pada saya, memandangkan saya tak nampak signifikasi kekal aktif di sosial media, saya malas mengikut majoriti yang ber-keep-in-touch di fb. efeknya ramai yg sudah berkahwin tanpa pengetahuan saya.



hah. pengetahuan saya tak seluas mana, jadi perkahwinan tanpa pengetahuan dan jemputan tu adelah lumrah hidup sarahnur.




kalau lah kata, ada perkara yang perlu kan urgent response saya, meletakkan wall post di fb bukan lah satu langkah bijak (kalau saya mempunyai fb). kadang kadang saya cuma memandang sepi aja pada notification. kumpul bilangan notification mungkin hobi tanpa sedar sarahnur.




jadi. masih tak releven untuk mengekalkan social network.




kamon! kamon! bagi lah valid reason utk saya argue.




Thursday 1 August 2013

ramadhan 22



till you heart starts beating for that somebody new.




semalam masa berbuka romadon ke-22 (mengikut perkiraan jari. kalau salah pun tak sapa sedar), kami bekas pelajar bioinfo ukm (2008-1011) berbuka sama sama kat wong solo bangi. (dah jangan harapkan review dan map. sarahnur pemalas. remember?)


tetiba si lyna menanyakan soalan cepucemas. (sebenarnya takda la cemas mana tapi she caught me off-guard ) dan saya cuma boleh sengih.



apa soalannya hoi budak.




dah jumpa pengganti?





dang.



tak marah. tak konfius. but like i said, she caught me off-guard. time tu tengah sedap mengenakan orang (specifically syasya dan tikah) amik. tuhan bila dia nak bayar, dia bayar tunai. kejap tu gak si lyna balikkan soalan. sampai kelu.



dulu saya marah. ya amat. oh trust me, so many questions i had myself. mostly the whys and hows. but over time. i let the questions go. sebab saya tahu, no one's gonna answer it for me. annnnnnd looking for it myself requires thinking and energy. not gonna waste the ATPs.




membebel je. apa point nye?




so i poured myself into work.





soalan lyna : dah jumpa ke pengganti?



soalan saya : senang ke?



yes and no.





unlike some, walaupun nampak macam propaganda barat ke ape jadah ke, saya rasa, jump into new relationship should be done when u feel like it, and now, i dont.





i told him, i wanted to be single. so i am.





we both knew the affections we had started to wear off, to put it nicely. but i gripped hard. too hard.




so try, convince me, why should i be having these, again, soon?





tahniah kepada sesapa yang nak kawin. semoga Allah memberkati dan dipermudahkan urusan.